Meeting with the PM

The meeting with the program manager went really well. She and my supervisor were both really supportive, and said they're basically following my lead, as this is uncharted territory. We've put off the discussion with my unit. Partly, because this is all going a little fast for me and I need some room to breathe. And partly because we decided it would be better to inform the other supervisors first, so that when word spreads they'll be prepared. My supervisor has offered to talk to them herself, or I can talk to them, whichever I choose, when I'm ready. It was also suggested that if I wanted to bring a support person, I could. I was told that whenever I'm ready, we can start using my new name, that I don't have to wait for the legal name change. I brought up the bathroom issue, and the PM said she would contact personnel and ask what procedure should be. My supervisor will check with IT to see how long it would take to change the email system to reflect my new name, so that we can time things right. I'm still really anxious about telling the foster children, care providers, and biological families. But I guess there's no way out but through. In case there was question, being transgender isn't for the weak or fainthearted. This is taking every ounce of courage I can muster. But I'm supported. I have a lot of support at work. Okay, so far only two people, but they're the right people, and I know that more people will support me once they know.

In other news, I was not able to get my first shot today, although I now have the testosterone in my possession. If I wasn't afraid of killing myself by doing it wrong, I think I'd go for it myself tonight, but fortunately I have more sense than I have impatience.